Perservere!

Tried to tie a bow on my hair just now but somehow I failed.
Even if I succeeded, it'll be sooo messy. But nevermind, I'll keep trying!

Should I do mask tonight? Im so lazy to do it but because of vanity, I think I'm gonna do it later. Goodnight!

Love

Back then in 2008.
I miss how things used to be back then. How I got crazy head over heels over cxyxr. It's really a crazy kind of crush? The feelings were so strong and crazy..... and it lasted for a year or so. How can I like someone for so long? When I don't even really know that person at all. Silly moments ~ & I can never forget, it's Asthina Tan the one who accompanied me through out all those crazy moments and we were so close back then, meeting almost every single day. Walking all over tpy and to KB, talking to each other about our feelings and tonning together.


Our very first picture together :)
Seriously I find that our camera pixels are so freaking lousy. All the images and pictures were so blurry. LOL wtf. But thank you Atlh, for accompanying me through out all those moments. I miss how we used to be so close.....



And I wonder how can I edit those pictures till like that. Oh well..... Good old times! :)
I'd never regret having a friend like you. ♥

Although I can't have the one I love, but that kind of feeling is still so amazing. & At least I won't get hurt that much, but just crying for one stupid reason - I miss him. Now thinking back, it's really so silly, yet amazing.

Loving someone isn't really about having him/her by your side or whatever.. Just by being able to take a glance at him or whatever, I'd be so happy and over the moon. It's all stupid actions caused by love......


But now I've found my happiness, my love. I can't really say if it's true love or what but I hope it is..... :) Although the "love-feeling" is different from how I used to love cxyxr, but I know I love Adam much more. Guess it's because he's my boyfriend, I got him. Those one-sided love feeling is definitely different from being in love. Being in love, you can feel real happiness. Those simple little things that warm your heart and put that little smile on your face. :)


Thank you my love....... For every little things. I love you, that's something I want it to last until my last breathe. ♥
I have no idea why I posted this post but I just feel like it. Whtever. Goodnight! Xo.


'Cause you made me realize, what's happiness. (L)

Choosing A Gift

Feeling so stressed over choosing what present for Adam's Baby Sister. It'll be her birthday in about a month time. I'm considering whether to get a shirt for her online or not. If yes, I must order it early in case it takes a long time to arrive. Ahhhhh.

Dress? Bottom? Top? This is soooo stressful :( I'm afraid that it's going to be too small or something also. Aiya this sucks la :(

Goodnight :(

Study?

Back home after meeting Dyin Yin for a short chatting session. We were supposed to study today but she overslept so we only met up to chat instead of studying. Make it up tomorrow then. Prelims are nearing.... I really got a whole lot to catch up. Seriously, I've not been studying hard for like four years. Regret is the word I'd use. But right till now, I still can't seem to on my study mode and start studying. Sigh. Force and motivate me to study, someone? :(

I'm really worried and afraid of the damn N levels. But I'm still slacking my days away instead of studying. Like why? Why can't I fucking start motivating myself to study? At this stage i'm slacking, I swear i'm so gonna flunk my N's so damn badly. When I got my results back, my tears would flow down but I can only blame myself..

After all of these whole crap I've typed out, I can tell you that I'm still not motivated. Why am I so not clever? :(

Ok, on a random note, I miss Adam. Goodnight all :)

Always The One

2010's picture.
First, happy 23rd monthsary/one year eleven months. One more month to official two years being together with you, my love. ♥ :) This weekend of mine I've only been spending it away with my dearest boy doing nothing. But at least I've spent time with him.

With him I never fail to keep munching and munching. Damn it. :(
Oh I got sick for about six to seven days. Got infected by viral fever. It was soooo torturing. I've just recovered not long. Finally my appetite is back and I'm eating a lot and I hate it. At least a jogging session this week, hopefully.

Okay I guess no one's gonna tell me what to blog about. My formspring's still so dead. Or is it because that no one is actually reading this blog...... ahh whatever. Pardon me for my boring posts then..... I'm just posting for the sake of posting. Cya ~

2y3m

I love today's weather! It's so cooling, without raining and big bright sun ^-^

Shall go shower in about an hour time, then head to meet Shalini at 6 and wait for Tan Dyin Yin to come over for our study session! Hopefully it'll be a fruitful one. :) It's th 16th today anyway. Hey baby boy, happy " two year three months "! ♥

Actually me myself find that my blog is so b o r i n g. Hello readers! Any suggestions what can I blog about to make my blog more interesting? Like for example, you can give me a topic to blog about and I'll try my best to do it! Hehehehe it'll be so fun :P Formspring me okay people! :( I wanna gain more readers~ Click here!

Till then, xoxo.

Be Optimistic

I'll make everything back to normal. I hope i'm able to do it.

After All Of These While

I've got so much things in my heart and mind, which I really want to say it all out to someone. I hate to hide my emotions or keep everything to myself. I'm not that sort of person. I need someone to talk to all the time, although at times I can't explain my feelings..

I'm so confused about what to do next now. Everything just felt as though it's.... different. Just very different. Drift - I hate this word, and I hate the meaning to it. Why must people drift with one another? :(



I'll never used to think this way in the past because back then I have confidence and faith in this relationship. But now everything changed. I do think this way now, I'm lacking of confidence and faith.. How long can this last? I really don't know.



Goodnight.
P/S: All the pictures are from Tumblr - Leilockheart :)

Just as I thought everything's gonna back to normal...... but it seems like, it's not.

Being Pampered By You ♥

Had a great weekend spent with Adam Wong! (: It has been quite long since we last had such a great time spent together. I love this kind of feeling being with him. But when I'm with him, I tend to eat a lot! Why?! =(

I went off early to meet Baby on Fri 'cause he ended work early at about 10 plus! So I went to find him :) Went to have Macs on Saturday, & spent the whole Saturday with him. I really love the time spent on Saturday with him the most. It's such a simple and sweet day. ♥ With him by my side, lazing around at his house, had some casual talks, took a stroll with him at night to central to get disc, being cuddled by him, having his kisses randomly, disturbing each other and so on.. This feeling, is what I loved the most. I call it happiness. :)

Today might not be a very good day though. 'Cause I have no idea why but lose my temper at him =( I'm so sorry my boy. We went separate ways kinda early today as he got to work. I'm seriously missing him so much so much so much so much now.. Might not be able to meet up with him and get his hugs for the whole of next week. Roar. Why do he have got to go to his Dad's house! :'(

Hey baby, thank you so much for everything. Really love you so much! I love being dote and pampered by you 'cause I feel so much like a little girl of yours and a princess. Haha! But don't pamper me too much okay! :( I'm already 3/4 being spoilt by you! Tsk. Xoxo♥

Tata.

I've no idea why I can't take a nice shot of myself nowadays. Damn depressed by it LOL

Everything's Gonna Be Alright

Waiting for baby to end work now. He's ending work at 1am.... I'm using Kris's lappy now. One thing that I've definitely got to do when using his laptop, is to go to cameroid.com and take some pics! :P

It's th second week of semester two. Everything's still alright, slowly getting used to school life. I guess today's VE lesson was kinda great ~ Really love 4n2'11! :)

So far it's a good day today. Hopefully later I'd have some talks with AWEY. If he's not very tired. Lunch tmrw with baby. Hmmm... what should we eat? Don't really feel like eating Macs cause its soooo fattening although somehow I'm craving for it =(

I wanna go jogging! I want a DSLR so that I'm able to take pretty pretty pictures with it. Although my camera was not that bad, but still with a DSLR will be better right? Okay crap. Till then!

Still Holding On

I really hate this kind of feeling I'm having right now. It's really slowly killing me inside. I hate to feel that we've somehow drifted. I hate how things are now. Really.

This time round, can we make it all right?

Because There's You

Srsly i'm starting to detest you more & more.
Its not that I wanted to, but it's your actions that makes me feel this way.
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Sometimes I feel that life isn't really good for me.
But thank god there's this special and great guy with me all these while to let me rant to and make me felt that my life is worthwhile 'cause theres him. He's someone who never fails to be understanding. Someone who never fails to appreciate every lil' thing I do. He's so great that I'm unable to describe how great is he in such a short post and short time.

He's none other than Adam Wong Ee Yeong.
Thank you love, I love you. ♥

Goodnight, x.

P/S: sorry for such a short and weird post. Using phone to blog, again. & i got to catch some sleep ASAP. :)

Feeling Kinda Tired

2009.
no Monday blues today 'cause it's a school holiday :) But tomorrow's gonna be a long day...... because there's three period of fnn. chiong coursework! deadline will be up soon, sigh.

well, I'll not be able to spend much time with my dearest from mon - wed 'cause he'll only have off on thurs, sat and sun. but at least he'll have off on weekends. :) more time spent with him. he said that he took off just for me. awww. ♥

kinda bored now. Vanness Wu appeared in 娱乐百分百 on th 2nd of July! awww he's so cute + cool~ (L)

should I go out? hmmmm... =(

I Love Weekends

Feeling so tired. Luckily there's no school tomorrow. YOUTH DAY :)

Anyway I'm blogging via phone. Wanted to upload some pics but oh well there's some reason why I'm unable to use the computer. So sorry readers! & sorry for neglecting this lil site for so long. :/ actually im just updating this blog just for the sake of updating. ._.

School was actually not that bad for week one. Everything's still going well. I'm trying my very best to pay attention in class. Now i'm so scared and worried about N levels oral examination. English oral coming up on Wed for me. Damn. Hopefully everything goes well~ wish me luck kay. My weekends are actually quite boring, but I thank god that there's weekends for me to rest. Feeling so worn out cause of school. Four more months, end of N levels..

I'm actually planning for some overseas trip with my baby boy during Dec :)
Missing him now. Gotta catch some sleep already. CYA~ nights! ;)