Study?

Back home after meeting Dyin Yin for a short chatting session. We were supposed to study today but she overslept so we only met up to chat instead of studying. Make it up tomorrow then. Prelims are nearing.... I really got a whole lot to catch up. Seriously, I've not been studying hard for like four years. Regret is the word I'd use. But right till now, I still can't seem to on my study mode and start studying. Sigh. Force and motivate me to study, someone? :(

I'm really worried and afraid of the damn N levels. But I'm still slacking my days away instead of studying. Like why? Why can't I fucking start motivating myself to study? At this stage i'm slacking, I swear i'm so gonna flunk my N's so damn badly. When I got my results back, my tears would flow down but I can only blame myself..

After all of these whole crap I've typed out, I can tell you that I'm still not motivated. Why am I so not clever? :(

Ok, on a random note, I miss Adam. Goodnight all :)