Thank God I have you in my life

WARNING; LONG WORDY POINTLESS POST.

In the middle of the night, I'm having random thoughts. Anyway how long have it been since I last posted my feelings here?..

I have no idea why I'm thinking about all these, but I do. It might be a good thing though. I wanna treat my boy better. By showing him lesser fucked up attitudes will do. I know it myself that my attitude really sucks. I can't stand it either but my boy would always tolerate me.. And still love me. For who I am. Although he really want me to change, but he said he wouldn't mind if I did not change. He'll still love me. As much. I never thought that I'll ever find someone who loves me this much. He's always treating me good. Maybe not the exactly the way I wanted but he's trying his very best to treat me right. Why am I still demanding so much? I mean we have different characters, opinions, mind-set and personality. I can't expect him to love me and treat me the way I wanted to, right? All I have to know is, he love me with all his heart and treating me the way he feel it's the best.

I really want to change. Not only for him and this r/s, but for myself to change to a btr person and change for people around me. But my boy gave in to me too much... That I took him for granted and showed him the kind of attitude that I've never showed anyone else before. Which is of course, more worst than the usual. I have no idea how he manage to tolerate me for two years. Two freaking years going three soon.

I'm really lucky, ain't I? To have such a great boyfriend by me. Holding onto this r/s no matter how hard the situation gets. I honestly think that his love for me is deeper than the love I have for him but I don't really want it this way. I want to love him more than he love me. I'd rather suffer than let him be the one that suffers. I'm gonna love him more from now onwards and try my very fucking best to treat him right. I hope I can do it. Somehow I wanna return back to the past when he didnt love me this much but I know I cant. So i wanna make things better for us. Now.

Hey Baby, I know you'd read this... I want you to know... I love you. So much.... Xoxo.

(P/S: its wordy, I know. just for my thoughts.)

Double Blues

School tomorrow again? Sigh. Why weekends always end so quickly and weekdays always pass so slowly.... Double Mon blues tmr. Ending lessons at freaking 4pm.

Anyway finally went for a movie date with Baby this afternoon. Caught 'We Not Naughty'. Wasn't really as nice as I expected but still alright. Baby bought a huge popcorn! We managed to finish more than half of it. Wow... Went back to Baby's crib after movie. Lao Yu Sheng and also ate cake as it's 人日 today. Happy birthday every earthlings! Played MJ and baby lost a lot. Already told him that we ran out of luck and asked him not to gamble but he still did anyway. Sigh.

Got this urge to travel overseas.... Pix below! Have yet transfer my FC fee.... There's gathering on 26th but I doubt I'm going. Shall see how things goes. Goodnight world.

Cant wait for term break

Thank god it's Friday tomorrow. Post again soon. Goodnight.

Cny Day 2

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! Happy 2year5months to Baby and myself!

It's 初二 already. And school's gonna start tomorrow. Ugh. Im so in holiday mood but ah, I got to attend school no matter what! Have to get good grades, rmb?! *self-reminder.

So far cny has been good. The $ I got is more than I expected although not a lot. $25 for fc fee and $45 for this month's phone bill. The rest, save up and try my best not to touch it. Okay pics below! Tata.

Cny Eve

I know I've neglected this little space here. Well, Im sorry. So I've dyed my hair using Liese bubble dye the other time! On Thurs? If you're following me on Twitter, you'd know. It's good to use. But one bad thing is that because its self-dye, thus obviously the colour will not gonna be even. But afterall I'm satisfied with the result! Not very obvious, not too blackish. And even before I shampoo my hair when washing away the bubbles, my hair isn't tangled and is still kinda smooth. But on pic the colour isn't obvious..

I'm actually somehow feeling sad that Baby can't make it to have reunion dinner with me.. But well no choice he have his own dinner to attend. So its okay.

Ah, im tired now. Update soon agn. Im excited for cny because i want to wear my new clothes!!! Wheeee! OH I SAW RAINBOW TODAY AGAIN. My 2nd time of seeing rainbow in 2012! Ok, Night night.

2nd Week of School

Ah, haven't been blogging for days. Anyway..... Firstly, Happy belated birthday, Dearest Mummy! :) Im so sorry for not being a good daughter, but you've definitely been a good mother. Promise I'd try my very best to study hard. I love you! ♡

Secondly, Happy "2y9m" to Baby boy and I. Needless to say, you know I love you. :) ♡

Starting of the 2nd week of school? Kinda sucks. It's a real hot day today and im soooo tired. Yawning non-stop in class. And I have make-up lesson on Wed. Supposedly im ending school at 12 but it's gonna end at 4 instead. Srsly, fuck this. I cant skip either if I want to get good grades. I cant even have the thinking to skip. I must keep telling myself to study hard. Speaking of that, I think I'll need a notebook. For my own reference notes. To make myself understand everything better.

Im gonna sleep early tonight. Stay over at Baby's on Wed? :) Missed him!! So much..

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I survived through the first week of school! So far till now, I quite like school. And I'm learning to love school so that I will attend school regularly and get good grades. It has been quite successful up till now I would say. Hope this goes on for the whole year.

Was suppose to meet my Dear boy today but he'll be having OT and im not quite sure if im meeting him today or not. I hope so?.. :( I wanna perm my hair! Should I?!!?

School

School was better than I expected today. And time passes so quickly! But im like... Kind of loner. Not exactly but I haven't make any friends yet. Sigh. Im friendly :( why ppl dont wanna make friends w me t_t this makes me feel that maybe... they dislike me or smth lol.. So no actual lessons today. All the lecturers just said some stuffs and it was boring. I guess tomorrow will somehow srsly start lesson. School will be ending at 1 tomorrow. Endure! It's gonna be Fri soon!

Anyway look what I've placed in my lanyard tag! We got to wear the lanyard at all times in the campus and my tag is empty thus I decided to put this in it. Heh. Ok time to sleep and I pray for a better day in school tomorrow..

First day of school

It's my first day of school... Yesterday? its past midnight twelve. It was boring. They're treating us as if we're like in Primary school students or something. But It's still alright. Best part of school? Knowing that there's someone I know in the same class as me. I got to give $80 of class fund. Whatttt... Can I pay by installment lol. I dont wanna take so much $ from Mum. But I have no $ too. Sigh.

I'm so tired. Gonna sleep now. Xo. I miss my Dearest BabyLuv.

I believe its Love

There's always a beautiful rainbow after a horrible storm..

So everything's alright once again. So glad that my silly boy did not let me go.. I'm sorry for all these. I will not have those thoughts again, I promise. I love you. Xo.

School life once again starts tomorrow. School life for me, working life for him. I hope different kind of lifestyle for us wouldn't be a problem to us. I have faith in him and this relationship. Not much faith in myself but I'll hold on no matter how hard it is. I believe in his love for me and I believe in my love for him.

I miss him. I wanna be in his arms. Time spent with him will never be enough..

Heartache

Not a good day for me. I wanna express all my feelings out but where and how can I say? Twitter ain't a safe place anymore....

It might end soon.

Simple "celebration" for TDY

It's DyinYin's birthday yesterday and last minute I went over to meet Rachel Ong and wait for Dyin Yin to come over. Rachy and I went to buy a small cake for her and we waited for her at Mos Burger. Meanwhile we chatted and gossip, as usual. About a hour later Dy came. We then stayed there for awhile and went out to elsewhere to sing birthday song for her. :) pics below. Times like this with them never fails to remind me of school days.. Gossipings and going crazy, talk cock and everything. Honestly, I miss school. I've never hated ftp but just some of the teachers there. Nope I didnt regret getting into this school and know awesome peeps. If not for this school I wouldnt have know Baby..

So much memories in there.. I would like to head back to school soon. But sadly Mr Rick Lee isn't teaching there anymore.. :( I miss giving him sweets :(

Tiring Day

Didn't notice the timing and I was shocked that it's already 1AM+?! i'm gonna sleep right after this post. Got to train to sleep early and wake up early for school..

Went to Simei ITE with Jayden and did his registration thingy and get his unis and stuffs then head to Bishan ITE to register mine. Was super tired. Like physically tired. And damn the weather. Anyway i'm re-considering whether to transfer school or not even if my appeal was successful. Hmmm chances are I doubt I'm gonna transfer. It's nearer to me :/ when I got back home, I felt sooooo relieved man. Headed to take a short nap not long after I've reached home. Shiqi and I brought Amber over to her house to while Guan went to play basketball. Initial intention was to play with Pebbles. Once I reach there he kept sticking to me and then started to scratch me and bite/pull my shirt. He was trying to...... Yeh LOL. What's wrong man. The prob lies with me or him?! Shiqi said it wouldnt do this to her nor her mum. Hmmm.. So anyway Amber dropped her iTouch while bringing Pebbles downstairs for a walk. Yup, spiderweb screen! Amber was so afraid of Pebbles, yet wanted to pat him. In the end she did. Well, went over to Basketball Court to look for them and then headed home.. Pix below anyway.

Oh ya, my new Ez-link card photo would surely be ugly. But I dont wanna trouble the person thus I told her it's okay no need re-take. Am I stupid? :( Regretted. But oh well.. Nvm. ><' what's done cant be undone. And I guess I'm going for the orientation on 9th. Wondering if I should go to Bb's Dad's house with him this weekend but I want to spend my last holis with him... Shall see... Ok nights world!

To add on - Add me on Path if you have one. Kwhyz Salvatore (I realize theres alot of ppl using salvatore as their last name now but whtever i loveeeeee Damon Salvatore <3)

& happy 18th, Tan Dyin Yin! ♥

Cause Its you that I love

Its already the 3rd day of 2012. How fast. I'm still not used to the year '2012', I'm like still living in 2011. So far 2012, has not exactly been good to me. Had a little unhappiness and arguments with baby yesterday. Like the actions he did made me feel so pissed. The prob lies with me maybe? But good thing is being able to spend time with him.. Dont wanna care whether its happy or unhappy times tgtr. As long as it's time being spent with him and it's him.

School is starting for the most of the people out there today. As for me Im not very sure when my school will start when but the thought of it makes me feel.... Sad? Excited? Bored? Mixed feelings, haha. Anyway baby went off to work and I came back home cause stay at his place also bored. Hmmm not going to find him tonight anymore I guess. Have been staying over for abt 4 days. Ok im gonna watch my vd now so tata! :)