I Miss You, My Dear Friend

(!): THIS IS A RANTING POST.

It really sucks to know that someone treats you just as a normal friend when you treat them as a total best friend. You thought that they're someone who you can always confide whenever you have problems, you thought that they will find you when they're upset. But infact, this isn't the case. Lol, whenever that happens, you'll feel like you're a total fool. Yes, this is happening to me. I hate it. I hate this feeling, really alot. I feel that I've got to stop doing all these, I miss all of the memories, I miss that person. So much, so much. I always expect alot. But I gave up. I give up once I have disappointment. Nahhh, I'm not gonna let so much details out though. I dont know who can I tell this matter to. Really, this have been in my heart for real long. Because even when I'm writing this post, I don't even know how to explain this kind of feeling. No, I can't tell my friends, because I think this is quite a..... silly matter. No, I can't tell Baby. Because he won't understand, won't ever. It's not only one friend that are making me feel this way.

You really meant so much to me. Years of friendship. With ups and downs. How I wish to return back to the past where I know I'm really, really important to you as well. Ok I know all these really sound very lesbian. but just think it in a friendship way. I've been feeling this way for real long already. I dont know how long is it, I've forgotten. Because sometimes the feeling just occur. Quite often, though. There's this particular person that is always important to me, no matter how much I tried to put it all behind. I may not be important to her anymore, but, she's always important to me and often, I miss her.

It has been long since I've rant to my blog for such a real emo long post. I know. If you've really read everything, thanks for reading. But, no matter how close we are, don't ask what happen because I won't know what to say. I won't know how to start with. Don't ask who. Thanks. I'm kind of done with ranting, I'm so sorry for this post. But this is my blog. I have the rights to, right? :)

I'll be alright tomorrow, hehe! goodnight. :)